the other day, a fb friend of mine, posted something of great importance to her life. she wrote that she and her husband were getting a divorce. she continued to state that this decision had been in the making for years....and she is very over joyed to be finally announcing it to the world. her raw honesty was so refreshing. she is refreshing. i met this person back in little rock, while we were stationed there. we lost touch, and hooked up again via fb a couple of years ago. so, i can call her my 'old new friend'. a friend that i used to know, didn't talk for years, and now i do. actually, today, was the first time i had heard her lovely southern voice in over 12 years. she is the reason i have decided to do what i'm about to do.
i have been in a major rut for a while now. really, ever since i moved to ohio. we moved into another fixer upper....to say the least. all i do everyday is sheet rock, or paint, or clean, or sand while doing all the mom and wife duties to boot...you get the point. basically, i am in desperate need of a vacation from this place. i can say that i truly despise this house. i just can't seem to like it even a little....even the rooms that are done with remodeling. i try and pray....i do, but to no avail.
anyways....thanks to my 'old new friend', i decided to change my life, one day at a time....by applying for a job. i found an add for elderly home care aides in the classifieds. i wanna give back to the community and i'm a night owl. i wanna get myself out of the rut i am in. i feel trapped and not able to breathe any more where i'm at in my life. i have volunteered before at the rescue mission and loved it. but, boy, it would surely be nice to be able to get paid for my services...haven't had that in over 13 years!
decision made. i'm going to apply! so, next step was to print out the application. i look over it and felt the anxiety washing over me. they want my past employment history, and references... what do i write? i can't write down jobs i had back in the 90's....those places are probably not even there anymore. do i write what i've been doing the last 13 years which is a very extensive list, since i am an air force wife, mom and diy'er....or do i leave it blank, and let the interview take care of it? and the matter with references...people not related to me...people that have knowledge of my work ethic, experience and abilities... ok, sweating once again. who do i write down? what do i do?
i WILL figure this out folks...and i WILL hand in that application TODAY...whether it's completed or not. i will do this, not only for myself, but for my boys. they need a mother who is happy, who is on the ball, who is focused.
i will keep you posted.... ;) have a great day my friends...and remember, just because you are afraid, doesn't mean you have to hide. i'm learning this....one step at a time. thanks for the nudge my dear old new friend.
.....so, what are you especially thankful for today?!